WWJD
Well by now mostly everyone knows of my lapse of judgement this weekend at the USA XC Champs. I have replayed the moment a thousand times and every time I see how dumb I was to not realize the bell was not accurate. I have no idea why it didn’t process through my mind that I had only run 2 laps and not 3, but there is no going back. I watched in agony as my spot slipped away when I kicked to the finish line only to be told to run another lap.. I couldn’t. I was done. And my goal of making the World Champs team crashed. Experiencing this self-induced pain still has me cringing, but moving forward is my only choice. So, WWJD? This stands for What Would Jane Do? Jane, as in, my Gammy Jane. My grandmother passed away last week after a very short and violent battle with cancer. We found out over Christmas, and 5weeks later she was gone. It has helped put things in perspective for me. The strength of my mom, her siblings, and my Pappy Bob has proved to be an incredible example for me, and, on a side note… my 72 year old Gammy Jane ran every morning at 5:30AM until the day she went into the hospital. What is she remembered for? She was the strongest, kindest, most selfless person I know. It has me thinking, what do I want to be remembered for? I made a really big mistake that cost me a lot of opportunity, crushed my goals, and misrepresented my sponsors, my team, my coaches, my family, and myself. But, moving forward and accomplishing future goals, now that can be something I can add to the list of things I am proud to be known for. What a beautiful and wonderful gift from my Gammy Jane. As a look ahead, I am grateful for this perspective and appreciative of what I do have. I hope I can continue to remember this little saying to help me throughout the rest of my life so that I too can leave a spark for others. Thank you for all the kind words, inspiration, and support.
Racing with the best in the USA
Realizing I miscalculated time and I was only at 6k not 8k…